Author: Eric Styles

Preparing for Eucharist: From Apathy to Faith

God, the rock of our salvation,

whose gifts can never fail,

deepen the faith you have already bestowed 

and let its power be seen in your servants.

[We ask this through …]

(from the 1998 Roman Sacramentary in English)

Readings for 27th Sunday in Ordinary Time-C (10/02/22)

Pray-As-You-Go (Ignatian) Audio Meditation 

“Prayer of Habakkuk” by Peter Gorban (b.1923 Stavropol, Russia -d.1995) 

“The opposite of love is not hate, it’s indifference. 

The opposite of art is not ugliness, it’s indifference. 

The opposite of faith is not heresy, it’s indifference. 

And the opposite of life is not death, it’s indifference.” 

~Elie Wiesel

There were many interesting and substantial questions asked at “What’s In Styles?” on Monday. One of them went something like this: “Is there anything particular wisdom you want residents to gain while living in Carroll during your tenure as rector?” It’s an interesting question, but I balked at first.1 That being said, I did offer some things I think are important. They should sound familiar to most of you: 

  • Making sure this is a place where a diverse group of residents can be assured that they do, in fact, belong.
  • Giving folks the opportunity to learn and develop their capacity for service. Service is the ground from which effective leadership springs.
  • Nurture within residents a capacity to say “yes” to life-defining vocational questions.

As I reflect on what started as an impromptu list, let me now add another: 

  • Provide the context for young people to embrace a life of faith that can actually respond to contemporary life-challenges, drawing people into a nexus life-giving meaning.

That’s the serious challenge presented in this Sunday’s readings: Are you faithful or aren’t you?! Here is my version of Jesus’ words: “You don’t have to have a lot of faith; just enough to show up.” This is not an indictment of those amongst us who identify as agnostic or atheist or those who feel alienated because of any particular church teaching.  Their presence only forces us all to be more reflective and thoughtful about the whys and hows of Christian living. Better yet, they are us. We are all, at least at times, agnostic, atheistic, or alienated.

What really squashes faith in our midst (and yes, I mean even in Carroll) is apathy or indifference. In other words, those who act as if nothing really matters (n.r.m.). And this, for those of us who are trying to figure out who we are and what we are all about, a n.r.m. attitude from our peers can have a powerfully demoralizing effect. Because faith is not a pleasant warm feeling; it’s an act of the will. N.r.m. is, in my opinion, the easy way out. 

I don’t have to think about how I use my body, my mind, and my heart for some defining purpose. I can just do whatever comes to me, whenever it feels good to me. I don’t have to serve or sacrifice. Nothing really matters. YOLO!2

Choosing otherwise may be laudable, but cynicism blocks us from trusting that one can choose virtuousness without being ultimately motivated by money, fame, and power. Once again, we become trapped.

But the readings say otherwise: Habakkuk: Never stop telling God how you really feel. Psalm 95: never stop listening for God’s response. 2 Timothy: Do not be ashamed of faith in Christ; cowardice can only be combated by trust and courage. Luke: Have the faith to believe whatever purpose God is inviting you into is yours, come what may.

A Mustard Seed by Piety Choi

Psalm 46 by Bifrost Arts

1I am uncomfortable implying that my time in Carroll is special or particularly unique. I tend to be very weary of anything that whiffs of personality cult, so branding my time as rector seems a bit egotistical. Don’t get me wrong, I have an ego, I am just weary of feeding it.

2Here is a taste of what n.r.m. produces: “Artist Shames Tourists Taking Inappropriate Selfies At The Holocaust Memorial Site In Berlin (NSFW)” 

Preparing for Eucharist: Are You Offended Yet?

“Lazarus and the Rich Man” by Edward Knippers, 1986

Today’s Readings

Pray-As-You-Go Audio Meditation 

Father Mike Connors, CSC our longtime priest-in-residence returns to Sunday Eucharist after a number of academic-pastoral gigs outside Notre Dame. 

Each Sunday during this “Year C”of the liturgical calendar we work (fairly) consecutively through the Gospel of Luke. Today we hear a third parable in a row, forming a kind of triptych  of how Jesus asks us to reframe our moral imagination. Two thousands years of listening to Jesus (at least in theory) and this reframing still stings! 

Who doesn’t want to enjoy the good life? I, too, like to eat, drink, and be merry. And attending to those who in some way have less puts a real drag on that enjoyment. 

Today’s parable presses us and like the parables of Prodigal Son and the Unjust Steward: it risks offending us. All three press against our conceptions of fairness and hard work. Perhaps the rich man in today’s Gospel was unfair and earned his money through duplicity, but Jesus doesn’t tell us that; that doesn’t appear to be the point. 

The above art depicts the rich man who has no name and suffering Lazarus who does, as both naked. They are both vulnerable and in God’s view creatures. 

Lazarus shares a symbolic connection to Eliezer, the great Ancestor Abraham’s steward. The grace shown to him is a long time coming. But the rich man, even in his time of turmoil, can only see Lazarus as a means to his own ends, a servant even in the afterlife. 

The rich man has lost a sense of his fundamental connection to all humanity.  The “bosom of Abraham” represents the all encompassing embrace of the Father. To be in the bosom is to understand oneself as both subject to and beneficiary of God’s everlasting covenant. Even as he experiences torment in the netherworld, he cannot see that we are all saved together. I don’t mean we all have the exact same relationship with Jesus the savior. I do mean that our salvation is somehow wrapped up in what God is doing for and with all of us. 

How do we bridge the gap between us? Solidarity is what God wants from us. And for us to see that we belong to one another we have to act as if we already do. We invite one another in; into hearts that would otherwise harden. We are all creatures before a divine reality that can never be known completely on our own. The Way of Christ can and will build a bridge over the deepest divisions.

Music: Little Things With Great Love

words and music by By Audrey Assad, Isaac Wardell, and Madison Cunningham 

In the garden of our Savior, no flower grows unseen; 

His kindness rains like water on every humble seed. 

No simple act of mercy escapes His watchful eye — 

for there is One who loves me: His hand is over mine. 

In the kingdom of the heavens, no suff’ring is unknown; 

each tear that falls is holy, each breaking heart a throne. 

There is a song of beauty on ev’ry weeping eye — 

for there is One who loves me: His heart, it breaks with mine. 

Oh, the deeds forgotten; oh, the works unseen, 

every drink of water flowing graciously, 

every tender mercy, You’re making glorious. 

This You have asked us: do little things with great love, 

little things with great love. 

At the table of our Savior, no mouth will go unfed; 

His children in the shadows stream in and raise their heads. 

Oh give us ears to hear them and give us eyes that see — 

for there is One who loves them: I am His hands and feet.

Preparing for Eucharist: An Antidote to Despair

Today’s Readings

Pray-As-You-Go Audio Meditation

No servant can serve two masters. S/he will either hate one and love the other,
or be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and mammon.

“Lord of the Parables” by Jorge Cocco Santangelo

I

Father Paulinus Ikechukwu Odozor, C.S.Sp., is a priest of the Congregation of the Holy Spirit (The Spiritans). He is from Nigeria, has been at Notre Dame since 1999, and specializes in moral theology/Christian ethics. 

He is an ideal preacher for tonight, because the readings present a rich and complex image of the moral life. 

I have, as of yet, little to say. 

II

Here is what I can say about parables and the biblical tradition: the biblical tradition is most compelling when we remember that principle, that fundamental reality which seems to be at the heart of our existence (a.k.a., whatever it is that we Christians call the Triune God) is most often found in STORY. Narrative. How do we know God is present? We reflect on story. We tell the story and look for presence. Somehow, no matter how challenging, no matter how perilous, some spark of divinity is found in every human story. 

So sometimes the stories that Jesus tells, especially the parables, reveal to us some deep truth about the incoming parousia, the breaking-through of pure purpose. Those parables disrupt expectations, they turn our minds and hearts upside down and shake from them the complacent spirit of apathy with the intent of opening us up, that we might receive grace.

III

One of the profound pitfalls of our global, consumerist, digital culture is a strong tendency to  nihilism. I don’t mean in a technical sense; we don’t have to have read Friedrich Nietszke to be nihilistic. But if we live and operate as if “everything is a joke,”  we are also saying  nothing  matters;  life is meaningless. In other words, just live for your own pleasure before death comes to get you and you die. A meaningless world is not a world worth living in. It’s not a world worth sacrificing for.

I don’t have a perfect answer to combat this strong, looming shadow that covers us. God knows we have reason to doubt placing any hope in human history and human institutions. But I will say that for me, the in-breaking of pure purpose  is the primary and fundamental antidote to the affliction we might call despair. That in-breaking is ritualized and made available in the ancient (and hopefully ever-new) liturgies of the Church(es).  I invite you to partake. Come and see. Don’t expect to be fixed or convinced; though, all things are possible with God. Expect that over time, you might notice the narrative of your own life becoming just a bit clearer to you. That the possibility of meaning-ful-ness might show up in your heart in a way that not only surprises, but also nourishes.

Art from the Book of Amos in the Saint John’s Bible, the first illustrated and handwritten bible since the invention of the printing press in 1439.

I think this one continues to apply and deserves repeating …

Music: Wisdom and Grace

words and music by Sandra McCracken

Teach us to number our days 

That we may apply our hearts to Your ways 

Teach us to number our days 

with wisdom and grace. 

You’ve been our home and our dwelling 

our place in all generations. 

Before the earth or the mountains were formed, 

Lord, You were God. 

Now the span of our lives, 

It is made of sorrow and labor 

As the days pass away like the grass 

How soon we are gone. 

O establish the work of our hands, 

set Your favor upon us. 

O establish the word of our hands, 

May Your kingdom come! 

Preparing for Eucharist: Fathers & Sons

Today’s Readings

Pray-As-You-Go Audio Meditation

The reign of God is like … a shepherd seeking one lost sheep, a woman searching for a lost coin, a father with two sons.

Photo from the film, “Moonlight” written & directed by Barry Jenkins

I

In today’s gospel we hear Jesus respond to the doubts of others around him by sharing three parables about the kingdom or reign of God. He doesn’t use that exact phrase, but context tells us that he means to communicate something about how God desires to relate to us. I  only briefly address the first two to spend most of my time on the third. All three share a common theme: God’s love defies human logic. 

In the first we hear of the shepherd who leaves the ninety-nine sheep to go after the one that was lost. This makes no sense. Surely many of the others will be lost without his attention. And yet, Jesus is saying God’s desire for each of us is so strong, everything is risked for each of us.

In the second a woman with ten coins disrupts her whole life to find one coin. How can she rejoice about find such a small fraction of her wealth?

II

In the third parable we here what for many is a familiar story. A father with two sons, allows one to disrespect him and take half his fortune only to welcome the son back “no questions asked.” The father is foolishly lavish and forgiving. The dutiful older son is brimming with resentment because the father’s love seems an affront to fairness and justice. 

This father-son story may tap into various impulses among the men of Carroll Hall. Many of us may have complex, sometimes difficult relationships with father figures. Perhaps they have been ideal parents; perhaps they have left us wanting, even despairing.  Most men struggle to develop a healthy and life-giving way to relate emotionally to other men. It’s often indirect, sometimes communicated through competition. Seldom is deep affection between men openly expressed. And yet the need for the acceptance, affection, and guidance of men to other men is so strong that father-son relationships can determine the whole trajectory of a young man’s personal development. 

The parable reveals more about a hoped relationship between each of us and God the Father and is less about biological and social fathers. And yet we cannot ignore the connection. Our listlessness and despairing attitudes, our hopes and dreams for a deep sense of unshakeable connection serves to highlight how much we need to be found. And often enough, biological and social fathers are at the impossible task of  “keeping us safe from all anxiety.” The distance between these experiences only highlights what is at stake: everything. 

As young men, we want it all. No matter how hard we try to hide our need for acceptance, affection, and guidance it never stops being an aching chasm of desire and incompleteness. Think of the ways in which so many of us men seek what is lost. For many of us its physicality; powerful forces like athleticism, phyiscal aggression, chasing sexual satisfaction. This is the body. By turning what is good into an idol we become slaves to adrenaline, dopamine, power. Some of us seek out knowledge and ideas as if they were shields; “if I am right, I will be alright.” This is the mind. We obey the rules as if they can save us. But they cannot. And then some of us commit to nothing at all. We can call this the heart. By never saying a resounding “Yes!” to anything great we are never able to develop that spirit and purpose we actually desperately desire. 

III

Ultimately, only the Father can give us what we need. And by “the Father” I mean the Source of All Being. Jesus privileges “the Father” title which is there to open us up to an intimate relationship. Jesus is the Son. When we get caught in the stream of love between the Father and the Son, we are drawn into the Divine exchange. An exchange that transforms the longings of the body, mind, and heart into a whole person, fully present, fueled by hope. 

Music: Wisdom and Grace

words and music by Sandra McCracken

Teach us to number our days 

That we may apply our hearts to Your ways 

Teach us to number our days 

with wisdom and grace. 

You’ve been our home and our dwelling 

our place in all generations. 

Before the earth or the mountains were formed, 

Lord, You were God. 

Now the span of our lives, 

It is made of sorrow and labor 

As the days pass away like the grass 

How soon we are gone. 

O establish the work of our hands, 

set Your favor upon us. 

O establish the word of our hands, 

May Your kingdom come! 

Preparing for Eucharist: The Call of the King

Today’s Readings

Pray-As-You-Go Audio Meditation

Entrance Antiphon

“You are just, O God, and your judgment is right; treat your servant in accord with your merciful love.” Psalm 119(118):137, 124

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A very personal story about discipleship. Two years ago, while on retreat my spiritual director encouraged me to sit with an Ignatian meditation known as “the Call of the King.” The meditation has two basic parts:

First, the retreatant deeply considers what it would be like to say “yes!” to a great leader; someone from fiction, from history, or living today who one deeply respects and admires. Anyone of one’s own choosing. I chose Martin Luther King, Jr. I had audio recordings of a couple of his speeches on my smartphone. So when the time came to contemplate this hypothetical encounter, I listened to the Rev. Dr. King’s “I’ve Been to the Mountaintop” speech given in 1968. The retreat was silent and I sat at dinner quietly with earphones whispering Dr. King’s magnetic and charismatic voice into my ears. I listened to it’s 10 minutes twice. The people hung on every word; they encouraged him and shouted to him for more. And I began to think about how this speech was delivered in Memphis the day before he was gunned down.

Well, I don’t know what will happen now. We’ve got some difficult days ahead. But it really doesn’t matter with me now, because I’ve been to the mountaintop.

And I don’t mind.

Like anybody, I would like to live a long life. Longevity has its place. But I’m not concerned about that now. I just want to do God’s will. And He’s allowed me to go up to the mountain. And I’ve looked over. And I’ve seen the Promised Land. I may not get there with you. But I want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the promised land!

Anxiety rushed through me. Why? I knew enough of the story to know how it ended. But, I was thinking about all the others around him who later revealed that Dr. King was, in fact, riddled with fear. He knew that those who hated him were willing to make him pay the ultimate price for his prophetic witness. I was anxious because I knew enough about this meditation to know what was coming next. 

After dinner, I went to my room to brush my teeth, returned to the retreat house chapel, and began to sit with the second half of the meditation. As the prompt in the The Spiritual Exercises of Saint Ignatius Loyola says, “The parable of the temporal king is meant only to help contemplate the life of Christ our eternal king.”* I had done this spiritual exercise before. I knew the real question was “If Dr. King’s vision of justice and commitment to helping America to be what it said it was so compelling, how much more could I be open to saying yes to ‘renouncing all my possessions’ to be a disciple of Christ?”

I left the chapel at some point to walk the grounds of the property. I don’t actually remember the details of my prayer. I do recall thinking that if I were so nervous and anxious about following along the way of Dr. King and countless others, how would I fair when being invited by Christ to join him on the Way of the Cross. Today’s gospel reading uses what appears to be hyperbolic language to emphasize Jesus’ serious call to follow him.  Are we willing to allow our commitment to God in Christ to determine all other commitments, even if it causes rejection and misunderstanding? That evening in June I wasn’t sure I was willing.

In the end, for me, what matters most is that the person of Jesus is just that: a person. And not only just any person; he is my friend, the friend above all friends. Over the years, his way of life, his extraordinary message has become so central to how I make sense of reality itself, I think I will always be faced with his loving and inviting gaze, even reaching out to me from the Cross saying, “Will you join me in giving your life away for the mission of redeeming the entire world?” And only with his help could I – or any of us – say a legitimate and resounding, YES: “Lord, to who else can we go? You have the words of eternal life.”

To what great mission are you being invited into? How will you recognize the call when you hear it? What are the risks? What are the rewards? Come to the Eucharist; one day at time, God can turn your longing for something more into a life worth living.

*David L. Fleming, SJ. Draw Me Into Your Friendship: A Literal Translation and a Contemporary Reading of the Spiritual Exercises. Institute of Jesuit Sources, 1996.

Communion Antiphon

“Like the yearns for running streams, / so my soul is yearning for you, my God; / my soul is thirsting for God, the living God.” Psalm 42(41):2-3

“The Disciples Peter and John Running to the Tomb on the Morning of the Resurrection”  by Eugène Burnand, 1898.

Have Mercy on Me

by The Porter’s Gate (feat. David Gongur

The goodness of the Lord is the kindess of the Lord 

with ev’ry breath we take, the gift of life and grace. 

The power of the Lord is the meekness of the Lord 

who bore humanity with brave humility. 

Let Your mercy flow through us, Your mercy, Your mercy.

Let Your mercy flow through us, Your mercy, Your mercy.    

The beauty of the Lord is the suff’ring of the Lord, 

is Christ upon a tree, stripped of dignity. 

The glory of the Lord is the mercy of the Lord, 

gives life for us to see a new humanity: 

When they see us, may they see Your mercy, Your mercy. 

When they know us, may they know Your mercy, Your mercy. 

Bless the hands and feet of those who serve in need, 

of the broken and ashamed 

Bless the weary soul, the Lord will make us whole; 

God, speak peace to those afraid! 

May the words we speak build a bridge for peace— 

Your lovingkindness shows the way! 

Open up our doors, giving refuge for all the weary and afraid…

 

Fun at the Fisher Regatta!

The Regatta may be Fisher’s event, but as always, the Vermin did very well this year.

The Wood ‘n Caulk on what may be its last voyage. We’ll see next year! Photo by Duncan rector Nhat Nguyen.

All was good until the outrigger was broken while carrying the boat. Photo by Rector Eric Styles.

Sarah Heiman, rector of Lyons, our sister hall, proudly carries the Vermin standard. Photo by Duncan rector Nhat Nguyen.

The Vermin compete well on the new Black Plague. Photo by Duncan rector Nhat Nguyen.

Between races Vermin carry the still unpainted “Black Plague,” Carroll’s newest boat. We won second place in the Regatta! Photo by Duncan rector Nhat Nguyen.

Eric in friendly competition with O’Neil Hall rector Father Chris Rehagen, C.S.C. Photo by Duncan rector Nhat Nguyen.

 

Pie Your President

Vermin Christian Cyrul has been waiting all year for the opportunity to pie somebody, anybody. Vermin (16-17) President Andrew Rebholz happened to be available.

April 28, 2017; “Pie Your President” fundraiser, an annual event organized by Walsh Hall where dorm presidents and vice presidents get a whipped cream pie in the face to raise money for the Ronald McDonald House of South Bend. (Photo by Matt Cashore/University of Notre Dame)

LAKESIDE 2017

These photos from the 2017 Lakeside Music Festival were provided by Lyons resident Dani Meersman.

The Vermin hosting Lakeside Music Festival.

Who’s toucan clad razorback is that? Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.

Photo by “Lion” Dani Meersman.